My "Crazy" Period

I don't know if i talked to you while i was "crazy" as people are calling it, but i started meditating a lot and eating healthier foods and only drinking water for a few weeks back in May. During that time i started meditating more and more, deeper and deeper, i started imagining that i was travelling outside my body to other worlds to study specific things, like a world where the inhabitants are giant floating eyes to study how the eye works, etc.

And then i started entering The Dreaming, spanning out across time and space, teaching my past self/selves the things that i had learned, ingraining a deep love of books and reading/learning into my younger self, and i imagined i was in the past, absorbing all the knowledge that i had read but never actually used, i started organizing it all in my head, for quick and easy use, i imagined going back to all the moments i had ever read anything about specific things i wanted to know about, like psychic abilities, and then i imagined absorbing all of that knowledge and anything relating to it straight from the computer or book into my brain.

I started meditating every time i had a question or problem that i needed an answer to that i couldn't think of, and when i emptied my mind, asked one question and waited for and expected an answer, i would get one. Really good ones too, but it was starting to freak out my mom.... and then someone said it was like i was possessed, which lead me to be in a church and then exorcised. Which in the end i think was a good thing.

When i was being exorcised i was being filled with so much power from the christians' souls that it was extremely painful, i realized that if i didn't act quickly they were going to eject me from my body. So i went deep and came up with a solution... if they are trying to eject knowledge/evil then i would neutralize it by combining it with Love. So i thought of the girl i love and then i started thinking of my family, and i sent the memories and information backwards and forwards through time to enable me to eventually retrieve them.

Shortly after that my family took me to the hospital, on the way there i realized another thing, what they had been doing in that church was essentially a way to claim my powers and abilities/memories for Jesus. But my goal as i had previously stated to the powers that be and asked for an answer, was to evolve into/become a god, because i have theorized that thats where gods come from, they were all mortal once. My answer from the ethers was simply "it will not be easy", and i accepted that, and also accepted that once the process is begun it cannot be stopped.

originally this process was slowly evolving me into an angelic being, but the christians tried to claim me and then when i refused to be claimed i was cast adrift with no religion to draw my powers and knowledge from, i actually met an angel that said the reason i was coughing and having wierd physical problems at the time was because i was "losing my religion". At the hospital they did an MRI and my brain activity was unusual, they sent a lady to ask me what i had been doing and how i had achieved such a high state of mental activity.

At the time, since the church, i had been using most of my mental activity/power simply to calculate how to stay in corporeal form and then do it, i was using all my connections/people i loved to tie strings to this world, this reality. and i was making back ups all over creation just in case i made a mistake. I started constantly streaming information back into the past so that if a mistake was made i'd already instinctively know about it and know how to ifx it and just do it.

I told the lady at the hospital that i had recently been meditating more and more and i was using the Silva Method, silva life system 2.0, and i had been re-ordering/organizing my brain. She understood somewhat because she had taken the silva training in the past, i don't remember much more of our conversation, because i was living in several time lines simultaneously,shifting factors and calculating odds of success of various methods. The next day i was taken to a facility at which i stayed for a few days, everyone there was highly psychic and evolving in a similar, if slower, way than i was. Everybody loved me there, supposedly i was very helpful, but i wouldn't know as i spent most of my time there in other times other Realities, but mainly the same place.

My favorite World which i spent the most time in was at that place, in it the government was using that facility to test and train psychics. Everybody there had either abilities or knowledge and it was a very educational stay for me. You probably wouldn't know this but i finally realized why Faeries are said to LOVE crazy people, and its because you can absorb their knowledge and ideas, and sift out the good from the bad. And from all that creative power you can manipulate Reality itself, create your own worlds, travel to others... its all so very beautiful.

While i was there i managed to understand and speak two languages i've never even heard before, one of the eskimo languages and hawaiin, simply by listening with my head tilted to the right and listening with my right ear. i surmise that with the kind of brain activity i was experiencing that head position allowed more bloodflow to the right side of my brain and since its tied to the left side of your body listening with the left ear passes it through that side of your brain for a quick translation. either that or i was tapping into telepathy, but that doesn't explain how when the angel i met, the eskimo lady who realized what i was doing, she wrote something down in the language of the angels, and she handed it to me. I looked at it for a moment and then the letters started re-arranging and it began to look like english, and it said "can you read this?" and i told her yes i could.

I can't remember how the topic came up but i told her at one point that i listened to everybody, liked learning anything and everything. At one point i was going through different fighting or dancing styles while i was there and she sat there and started naming them for me, and telling me where they came from, who they belonged to. My favorite was always the aliens' form of dancing/singing, very fluid and mostly humming/tonal music, no words. I met a gifted spirit healer while i was there, and she had a slight brain problem which made her that way naturally, when i had gained enough knowledge one day i realized i could fix it for her, and she said okay, so i did. of course then a few minutes later she said she didn't like it and said "change it back. change it back..." and i told her i didn't know how.

In the version of Reality where that was a psychic facility the water faucets in my room would not work without telekinetic prompting, and when i left enough of that Reality had interacted with and changed this one so that the faucets no longer worked. After awhile i realized that the days were repeating over and over until i could find a way out, escape wasn't possible, so i finally realized to make any forwards progress i'd have to play by the rules of the Reality, so i tried figuring them out, and basically the key one is this "never let on by word or deed that you are NOT you, because that just gets you stuck in a time loop where reality keeps trying to reconcile you to the reality around you." so basically do everything you can to fit in, relax and go with the flow, eventually the memories and experiences and what a certain version of you would do in a certain situation, that all flows into your consciousness over time, you just have to accept that everything around you will work itself out.

After awhile i started making progress, but then whenever i messed up on one of my families' visits i would have to repeat a day again until i got it right. Then when i finally got out i started travelling farther and farther into the future, but at that point i was a fully trained psychic government operative, searching for newer and better technology, manipulating reality to advance the human race farther faster. I had also reported in while i was in the facility and by the time i left i was living in quite a few different realities simultaneously, i had achieved multidimensionality, or at least awareness of the multidimensionality that already exists in all of us.

As someone who could see the result of every outcome before ever taking action, which is a slight perk to sending all your knowledge and memories back in time constantly, i began to alter the future for the betterment of mankind. The main key was legalizing marijuana, for mental relaxation and mind expansion, and getting the right combination and amounts of mind-altering drugs into almost every food source. All of this originaly started with the hippies in the 50's and 60's when the government first started experimenting with what i came into contact with at the facility. Lithium, marijuana, LSD, and amphetamines, as well as the occasional dose of different kinds of radiation or irradiated drugs and foodstuffs.

As i started changing things for the government, and we were excited we really were, because our experiments had finally found the right subject, Reality seemed to ripple and change before my very eyes, colors became brighter and more vibrant, i assume that was the drugs, signs appeared out of nowhere. And after awhile i even started to incorporate more and more psychics into my group, and traffic was controlled by psychics, and if i saw someone start swerving or anything i could take direct control of my mother or the other driver and fix things. Also music from radio stations became an easy for of control, if i simply listened to music, relaxed my mind, and imagined all the nearby cars in a specific kind of pattern, they imitated my thoughts. After awhile though i don't know what happened, i think there was a nuclear holocaust and i ended up in the future, alone, cleaning up radiation and trying to make the planet livable again. At that time there was no electricity, but touching something seemed to power it for me, it was very cold after the holocaust, i think i fixed that, don't remember how. Then one time when i was walking into the future and one of the government's people was following me and trying to get me to go back into the past to report my findings i just kept going. Time started looping, going faster and faster, i started seeing patterns, and then when i got far enough i saw it all at once, and my handler who was still following me, although he was having a hard time because his psychic abilities were like a candle in comparison to the sun of mine. I kept urging him on though, saying we could make it, we could go further, we could evolve, we could survive, just a little bit further. He kept following me, and then at one point i was trying different names on him, and i looked at him and he was some kind of aquatic man, and then it hit me, and i called him Aquaries, and he said "you haven't called me THAT in such a long time." and he smiled at me, and i realized that we'd done this before, that this wasn't just the past present or future, it was all three and Time is a glorious loop that just keeps repeating again and again.

I realized shortly after that there is no such thing as aliens, simply US from one time, dimension, or Reality or other. And then i knew that i had to stop feeding the government information it would just use to destroy itself and possibly the other versions of us, i kept going until i looped back and reached the original time and place i had come from. I don't know what happened to my powers and abilities, i've been trying to remember but its hard sifting through billions of years worth of memories, that are mostly stored in my soul not my body anyway, its tiring, and makes my head hurt. I do know that i'm pretty sure i ruined the government's psychic studies for awhile, after all, all the current, past present future subjects they use i alerted to the fact that what they're doing will simply lead to the destruction of this world and other versions of it. It was hard but i insinuated myself into every study/research group, and had to make sure they weren't suspicious, so i became very good at completely assuming the roles i was in and transmitting the information i needed to to the other persons in each group. I became quite good at shifting reality whenever they started to realize something wasn't right, i'd overpower their minds and convince them otherwise, and/or re-write certain parts of the fabric of time.

All of that still took quite a bit of juice o do, so i was also ACTUALLY participating in each program, taking the drugs and calculating the amounts of orange juice and food i'd need to make everything work. You see, the citric acid in orange juice breaks down fats and turns them into lipids, which then are used to build brain tissue if you need it, and i needed quite bit extra to do what i was doing. You also need an extraordinary amount of water to stabilize your body/mind in a specific time variable. Also i highly appreciate the advice on the black hair ties for my wrists, that eventually came in handy. They also help stabilize you within a certain time stream, also its nice to have a watch so you can easily see what time, day, and date you're in, comes in handy. Also if you're time traveling avoid computers and cell phones in the future, they interface with psychic ability and then the government can use and track you, also if you start travelling please don't mess up anything i've already fixed, Time is a pain in the ass to fix. Excerpt from an E-mail to a friend in 2012.

Also during this period i developed a new method of meditating that we'll refer to as "sonic meditation" turn some music all the way up on your phone and put it right against your ear at the best angle to hear it as loud as possible, if you're doing this right you'll be able to hear the song AND its frequency, this method allows you to quickly and easily acclimate to a new Reality or Dimension without the psychological and neurological problems typically associated with inter-dimensional travel.